31 weeks and 5 days…

So I officially told my ‘work people’ that Friday August 27th will be my last day before mat leave. And days like today – I’m thinking thank goodness I did that – I am just sick of work! hee hee

I am the kind of person who is a control freak when it comes to work and I have had a long streak (almost 11 years) of project after project, company after company, where I have been juggling all the balls by myself, getting overwhelmed and stressed but always ending up completing everything in the end. I am learing to let go right now – I have no choice. This project I’m working on right now – well, I won’t finish. As of August 27th, it’s going to be someone else’s problem. And you know what? That makes me kind of happy in a way.

I have never given myself that kind of liberty before. I mean, the point of working so hard and working some more and keeping going was so I would be called again for another project, so I wouldn’t run out of work… I have had a grand total of 6 weeks off in 11 years… yup, that’s right. I’m tired now. I think the 6 months I will spend with my child will be a nice change. I know it will be hard at times, but well worth it I think!!

Other than that, let’s see… I’m down to 58 days before my due date *gulp*

I have finalized some decisions about the birth – nice to check these off the list:

• I am going to give birth at home, with a doula and my midwifes (and the husband of course…)
• I am going to give water birth a try. To be honest, that’s pretty much the biggest reason why I want to give birth at home – in Ontario you can only do that at home… I used to be freaked out about birth but, knowing I would want children at some point in my life, I tried to find a way that I would be ‘ok’ with. I started researching births 5-6 years ago and ended up coming across water birth. I clicked – this was going to be the way I would do it. It just feels right to me. It’s just perfect! I can elaborate on that in a future post…
• I am taking hypnobirthing classes. Another thing that seems to make so much sense to me when it comes to giving birth. This might benefit from getting its own post as well…

I find myself struggling to post often these days. I’m going to tell you a little secret: I have another blog out there. I’ve been writing it for almost 3 years now. I started this blog (Patchy Patch) because I needed to put my thoughts about my pregnancy out there – I wanted to wait for the first trimester to pass before I would announce on the other blog that I was pregnant, which made it difficult to blog at all – you know, the baby and the pregnancy is all that I was thinking about all day

Now that I have announced the news on the other blog and now that I have resumed writing there more regularly, I find it hard to remember to come here and post. But I want to keep this blog alive. I’m finding that I can write more ‘honestly’ here – there are too many people that I know in real life who read the other blog  and it makes me avoid saying certain things at times.

So I’m going to try and keep up with Patchy Patch and write some more… I’ll try…

And I have a reader! hee hee Go visit her blog, she’s great:

www.organic-mama.ca

Thanks Jennifer for all your nice comments and your support – you’re the best

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